Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Autumn Skies and Life and Death

I love the sunrises in the autumn skies.
I love the sunsets, too.

I am one of those people who will pull my car over to get a picture.  I think I may start taking my real camera with me for those spur of the moment shots.  I may be a little crazy.

Tonight, I feel crazy.

My 5 year old has been crying and agonizing on and off all evening because he is afraid of death.  I believe this somehow came out of a discussion in his music class today, where he was told Beethoven died at a young age of 35.

Tonight, he has cried, and gripped my hand, and said things like...

I am scared to die.
I don't want to die, ever.
Am I going to die?
Mommy, promise me I will never die.
I want to live on this earth forever.
I don't want you and Daddy to die.
I don't want my friends to die.

My heart is heavy, and my mind is exhausted.

Being a Mother is so very wonderful, and so very hard.

Youth fades; and then, the joys of youth,
Which once refresh'd our mind,
Shall come -- as, on those sighing woods,
The chilling autumn wind.
~from The Autumn by Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Jenny Matlock


  1. girl, i'm sorry. those are tough questions. i was there where your boy was... after my dad died (i was 9) i was scared of everyone around me dying. it took awhile to get over it, but my mom was so faithful to keep telling me about heaven. it certainly eased my fears.

  2. I used to not like autumn, cause it was like the death of a summer, and I hated for winter to come. I'm glad I learned to enjoy the beauty of fall. I hope and pray you have a better day tomorrow. Kids are resilient, maybe he'll not be so fearful tomorrow...

  3. Oh my goodness.....poor sweet baby :(
    It's hard & tough at times when there is nothing we can do to make them feel better. (((HUGS)))

  4. What a tough thing to be dealing with! It is hard to explain to little ones the reasons for death.

  5. Oh, the poor little guy. I think most kids go through that at some point. I'm sure if you just keep talking and explaining and reassuring him, it will be okay. Hope he's less scared today.

  6. Poor thing. I hope he got a good nights sleep.

  7. Thinking of death at 5 ?? that must be terrible for you as a mother !
    Your sunsets are beautiful ! I too pull over my car and stop for a picture !

  8. Oh sometimes these are the hardest moments in life....

  9. Too bad you are having to visit this so early. I wonder if there is a good book out there that would help to quiet some of his fears...


    PS. I don't know if you believe in an afterlife, but speaking of it always seemed to comfort my children.

  10. Wow. That's hard with a 5 year old. Seems a little early for such a serious topic. I love the Elizabeth Barrett Browning quote...beautiful. I hope your son finds peace and comfort soon.

  11. Oh, your poor son.... I know that it's really hard explaining death to a young child. I've had a friend who lost his grandmother last week and he was trying to find a way to explain her death to his 2 year old daughter. It's just not an easy subject to talk about. Even as adults, it's not exactly a topic of choice to discuss either so I can only imagine how much harder it is for someone as young as your son. I hope your son finds comfort soon.

  12. Gpsh! I hope he gets over that! 5 is awfully young to have such heavy stuff frightening you!!

  13. I love your sunrise photo!

    I feel for your son. These fears are so real to a child and the questions so hard to answer. Don't give up. He will draw his strength from your reassurance and love.

  14. Being a mom is very hard work! Sorry you're going through a tough time watching your child understand a topic that is really beyond his understanding!

  15. Oh, I remember these terrors with my own children. And two of my Grandlittles so far.

    It's hard to find words to comfort them when they suddenly realize they are not actually part of our bodies anymore.

    As they get older they finally realize they are always connected to us through our hearts and love...but until that time it's hard to teach them this concept.

    This post really, really made me think.

    thank you for sharing it.


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