Friday, August 5, 2011

I Wanted to Write an Inspiring Post {Hello From Below}


I wanted to write an inspiring post.

I wanted to say how I somehow survived the worst financial month of my life and made it to payday.

I wanted to tell you how I woke up Monday morning feeling panicky that we'd signed the Canadian up for the Haiti Trip, and that I was having doubts and freaking out a bit.  I wanted to tell you how by the end of that same day, 11:30PM that night, to be exact, we had randomly, without warning or provocation received the total $1000 for the down payment for the trip that must be paid now.  True story.  Isn't that amazing?  Isn't it like a direct sign from God?  Shouldn't it be inspiring over anything else?

And then, here we are.  August 5th.  Being a teacher, I get paid once a month.  I was paid July 31, and the only bill I have paid was last month's power bill.  I also made a measly payment on the $800 worth of outstanding medical bills, pool pump died this week $380, car went in the shop to the tune of $861 and still needs $625 more work done, blah blah blah, and it is only the 5th.

I am no longer inspired.

Worse than all of that, B has to see a specialist about a medical issue.  In the grand scheme of things, and in worse case scenario, it would take a minor surgery to fix it - if it needs fixing, but I am miserable just thinking about that possibility.  MISERABLE.  His health is more important than anything else in this world.  Anything.  Pray for my baby. Please.

I am trying to focus on praising Him in this storm.  This storm which apparently has no desire to blow away.

Remember my post about that (linked here)?
Psalm 100:4  Enter his gates with Thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name. 
~We get access to Him when we praise Him.
Psalm 22:3 He inhabits the praise of his people. 
~He lives and dwells in our life when we praise Him. 
I need direct access.

I have so much to be thankful for.

I am thankful.

I am not inspired, or inspiring, but this time, from deep below, I am praising the Lord.

3 comments:

  1. I am quite happy to tell you my wonderful friend that you are indeed wrong..... you are very inspiring!!!! <3s & hug!!

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  2. You have my prayers for B. I hope it all works out for his health. Health issues are scary for anyone.

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  3. I'm thinking about you my friend. I did a post today on Ann Voskamp and how she is inspiring me these days. I hope you check her site out if you already haven't.

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Kerri says:

Thanks so much for taking the time to share your thoughts! I LOVE reading your comments.

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